(Sorry this post is going to contain spoilers especially the ending)
“I would not be here if it weren’t for you. You’d be somewhere else entirely. You’d be a different person. And me, too. But we have done so much good for one another.”I couldn’t even bring myself to witness the ending again after the second time watching it. Yet I still remember the details; the empty room, the lights peeking through the window shining on them and highlighted the looks on their faces, and the lines they recited to each other. And it is in this very line that my tears started flowing uncontrollably. After witnessed how the characters grow throughout the series, it is clear that they affected each other in their lives.
And it’s the same for us, we’ve talked many times about how we affected each other in our lives. If it weren’t for you, maybe I wouldn’t have gotten the strength to pass the final year. If it weren’t for you, maybe I wouldn’t have gotten my current job. If it weren’t for you, maybe I wouldn’t have known how it felt to run a side business. We’ve witnessed each other’s milestones too; first internships, we graduated together, first jobs, and many things that we have achieved together. I will forever remember you in those milestones, though I will have to achieve the new ones by myself now.
“You know I love you, and I’m never going to feel the same way about anyone else.”Honestly, without having to say those lines, we already know how deep the love runs between them. Though they love each other, their relationship has its tragedy, that is to know someone is to know what you cannot give and what you cannot receive. To know someone is to remember all their flaws by heart, and to either accept it or realize that that’s what made the relationship didn’t work. It is heartbreaking to see how Marianne would do anything — even if it’s hurting her — to keep the relationship, and Connell knew that. Connell knew Marianne at the very core, he was the one who is able to know her completely, and know what is bad for her, unlike the other guys Marianne dated. Yet it is the very exact thing that ended the relationship.
We too had our own tragedies. The misunderstandings we had constantly made us walking on eggshells, and it eventually break. But after going through it all, we still have love for each other.
"I'll go,"
"And I'll stay. And we'll be okay."Those lines will forever be heart-wrenching for me. It hit me too close to home, perfectly described our ending too. You’ll go somewhere, leaving me here living the life I’m currently living. Sometimes I felt that it is unfair, how you got to go somewhere else entirely new, while I’m here always haunted by our memories about this city and refusing to go to places we used to go. The first time you said you were leaving, you said that it will only be for two years, and I held on to that. Little did we know, we shouldn’t be promising each other that, as a lot can happen even before it reached two years.
The ending beautifully yet painfully wrapped up the tale of two people who no matter how far they go, no matter how much they’ve grown, their lives are always intertwined together. And that perfectly described what I felt too.
Once you have shared your tale with other people, I don’t think the relationship ever ended permanently. No matter how you’ve concluded the relationship, parts of them will still forever be with you. You’ve shared many milestones together, and you will forever thanking them for being there. You will continue to grow because of each other, because of how you’ve inspired each other to grow. Your lives have been intertwined with each other, and will continue to intertwine for the rest of your lives.
I’ll stay as you go, and hope we still continue to grow because of each other. Then we’ll be okay.
