I’ve always felt like I’m a ‘not enough’ girl. Not pretty enough, not smart enough, not outspoken enough, not popular enough — simply just not good enough.
I’ve spent years and years trying to fill my own standards of enough. I tried, tried, tried so hard that I’ve reached the point where not enough turned into too much for someone. Not caring enough turned into caring too much, not feeling enough turned into feeling too intense, not giving enough turned into giving too much.
How can I be not enough and too much at the same time?
Can’t I be ‘just right’ for once?
No matter how much I tried, no matter how much I give, I’ll always be both not enough and too much.
How can I know which amount is just right?
It got me thinking, were you looking for something a lot less than I am, or were you looking for something that I do not have?
What’s something that I very lacked of, that you chose not to choose me?
How can I be too much for you, but at the same time not enough for you?
