an ode to mellow autumn
i’ve been feeling so tired lately since the beginning of this month. the reason? i don’t know either. not the kind of tired that can go away with having a good rest, it’s the kind that weighs your heart, adding extra weight to the already overflowing loads. i feel mentally exhausted, but i feel like this is because my heart is heavy.
i don’t have the reason to feel heavy in the heart, really. i am currently in the most stable state i’ve been this year, my business is back running, i have the sweetest, most supportive partner i could ever ask for, and i am stepping up my responsibilities in my job.
i might sound ungrateful, but honestly i thought this season would be kind to my heart, but so far it didn’t. it’s something in the autumn air that’s making me feel this way, i think. the air feels heavy and mellow.
i don’t have the reason to feel mellow either, but the feeling lingers in my heart for days and it’s weighing me down.
but i’ll just let myself feel things and be mellow in this mellow season.
